I know I do. I’ve made plenty, and I continue to make them every day. One of the biggest that I’ve made, however, was getting a credit card. Because of my misuse of credit cards there are now times when I wonder if I will ever get out of this paycheck to paycheck way of life. Every month I’ve been writing a budget, and every time I do, it depresses me. I wonder when it will get any better… no, if it will get any better. I think if I can just sell stuff, or maybe make a little extra money, that’ll do it, but then I either can’t sell enough, or the extra money ends up going towards things I need.
You know when you’re at a wall that you can’t make it over, and all you need is someone to give you that first foothold? That’s where I feel I am. I’m at the bottom, and I can see where I need to be to start climbing, but it’s just out of my reach. I know one day it will be better, but sometimes I’m know sure if I really believe it, and I know I don’t feel it. I hate living this way, I hate feeling this way, and I want to climb out…. but I’m stuck.