I don’t hate it, but it kind of bothers me a little when I have so many things I want to write about, yet I really only want to make one blog post. Makes me think I’m gonna forget something… With that being said, I’m now going to write a really long post about a lot of things, so hopefully it won’t get too boring.
As most of you probably know, I’ve been going through some tough times money wise, and while I’m not going to go into detail on here, just know that it doesn’t look like it’s going to get better extremely soon. Back a few weeks ago, this bothered me a great deal, but I’ve started to realize that God may be using this, as he tends to use many tough situations, to bring me closer to Him… and it’s working. I’ve started to let go of a lot of the worries I’ve had, and let him take care of him because “who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life.” If God feeds the birds and clothes the flowers, surely he’ll take care of me. All I have to do is let him.
With that realization, and since I’ve begun to turn it all over to Him, I’ve gotten a peace about everything. Now when I think about my money problems, or any other problem, it doesn’t get me down because I know that God is taking care of it. It’s in His hands now, and as His child he won’t let me down. He promised. However, just as the children in Kidztown learned two Sundays ago, we need to do our part before God will do his part. So I know that even though I’ve given the problems to Him, and I know that He’s going to take care of me, I can’t just sit back and coast. I still need to do my part to get myself out of this mess, and even if all God does is give me the strength and determination to do it, that will be enough, because he knows exactly what I need.
So with that in mind, I go back to yesterday morning. January 26, 2009, the day I turned 27. I woke up and started feeling just a little down, not terrible, like I have in the past, but just a little. Before I left for work though, I had an urge to pick up my bible, and since I have not participated in the Colossians study like I have wanted to, I decided to read the last chapter in Colossians. It was chapter 3 however that got my attention, so after reading 4, I went back and read 3.
1. If then you have been raised with Christ, sek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. 2. Set your mind on things that are above, not on things that are on the earth…. 5. Put to death therefore what is earthly in you….17. And whatever you do, in word of deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him
Those verses told me exactly where our focus and priorities should be. I had read them plenty of times before, but now they were presented in a different light. It’s not just things like cars, houses and other possesions that distract us from where our focus should be, but it’s also problems that distract us. So while I’m going through this time, my focus should not be on my problems, but on God and on how he wants to use me right now. I’ve come to the decision then, that no matter how long I’m in this mess, or how I get out of it, it will all be used to glorify God and show his true power. How he can take a troublesome time in someones life, give them peace and strength to get them through, and meet needs during that time. I want everything that happens with this situation, and everything that happens in the rest of my life to glorify God, and I want to shine his glory so that every one else will see it.
Now I’m going to end this post with a verse we read in Man2Man this morning that I want to be part of my daily prayer for the rest of my life.
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14