This morning at Man2Man (which was once again awesome of course), we talked a lot about fear. We said how fear can be a motivator, but it can also be a depressor. I shared that I had a moment of “depressing fear” earlier this morning while driving to the church. It was, of course, about money. I started to get afraid that things would never change, that I would always be broke, and never have enough money to do more than survive. It wasn’t as bad as it has been in the past, but it was enough nagging to get my eyes off God, and on my situation. Then just the slightest hint of depression hit, and I began to feel sorry for myself and dive into that pool of pity that we all swim in from time to time.
I still felt this way as I ate my biscuits, and even as the speaker did his thing. It wasn’t until we started talking at our table that the depression, fear, and pity left me for good, and it was all because of something one of the guys said. He might not have even realized what happened after he said it, but I guess you could catagorize it as somewhat of a revelation.
It’s just like when you pray for patience, you’ll find yourself standing in the grocery line longer than anyone else
I’ve heard people say before “don’t pray for patience unless you really want it.” Why is that? I’ll tell you why. It’s because when you ask God for patience, he will “TEACH” you patience by putting you in situations where you must can practice patience. If you never have to deal with irritating people, or long lines, or crazy drivers, then how are you going to ever be patient?
Well that of course got me thinking. If God teaches us patience by putting us in situations where we can practice patience, then what happens when we pray for finances, or knowledge? Is he just going to drop a big wad of cash in our laps, or somehow plant knowledge in our heads? Of course not, he’s going to put us in situations where we can practice the things that lead to becoming financially stable, or learning the things we want and need to know. Looking at my current situation from this perspective it now makes a lot more sense, and the fear that was a depressor, has begun to look more like a motivator. I can see how this current situation is teaching me how to stick to a budget, get out of debt, and save money… things that wouldn’t even be on my mind if I wasn’t struggling. I have prayed for financial stability, and to even be at the point where I can give money at the drop of the hat, and I can see now how God is using my current situation to train me where one day that might actually be a possibility. I can see him giving me the desires and the abilities to become more knowledgable in certain areas also, and that excites me more than you can possibly know.
So, I guess the “moral” of the story is, if you are afraid or depressed because of a current situation in your life, think about what you’re praying for, and look how God may be using that situation to train you and answer your prayers!