This past weekend I had the extremely wonderful opportunity to participate in the Walk to Emmaus. For those of you who have been, you may or may not relate to the things I’m going to say here because as I have been told and learned first hand, this experience is different for everyone. For those of you who haven’t been, I hope that after reading this, you might just be a little interested in it.
As I said above, the Walk to Emmaus is an Experience. That’s the best way I know to describe it because there are no words for it. You have to experience it to fully understand it. I had always wondered why I had never heard much about Emmaus, and it sort of made it seem like some secret organization, which in my opinion was actually kinda cool. However, I was wrong. There’s nothing secret about Emmaus. Now when you go, they don’t tell you much because they don’t want to to expect or anticipate anything, but it really doesn’t matter. I’m gonna go ahead and let the cat out of the bag though. When I got my acceptance letter, it wasn’t mine. They accidentally sent me my sponsor’s letter, and sent my letter to my sponsor. Having never been to Emmaus, I didn’t know what I was supposed to get, and so I read that letter. I actually read it 2 or 3 times, looking for the list of stuff I was supposed to take (and not take) with me. Needless to say that list wasn’t there, but because I had read that letter, I knew some things that could have caused me to anticipate certain things.
It didn’t matter though. I almost think you could know everything that’s going to happen and if you open up to God, there’s nothing you can do to keep from experiencing what he has planned for you. When it got to one of the main parts that I already knew about, my anticipation went right out the window, and I wasn’t ready for it, just like I wasn’t ready for most of the other “surprises” that we had. This is one big thing I learned not while at Emmaus, but just today, while thinking back on the experience. I learned that not only does God want to use each of us, but if we fully surrender and open our hearts to Him, nothing else matters. Our fears, anticipations, weaknesses and everything else that could hold us back are thrown away, and God takes over. He took over this weekend.
From the time I left till the time I got back home God’s love was poured out on me. Yesterday during our “sharing time” it rained, and when I got up to share, I talked about how God’s love came down just like that rain and soaked us all to the bone. That is the core of what Emmaus was to me. Love. There were people praying, serving, teaching, leading, and tons more behind the scenes that we didn’t even know existed, and they were all there for us. Not because they were getting paid, but because they love us. Now I want to do that for others. I want to pray, serve, teach and lead others. I want to show them God’s love, and then let him ambush them and throw all their expectations and plans right out the window.
I’ve been struggling with debt for quite some time now, and before I left for Emmaus I was worried about not being able to pay this or that, but since I’ve given it to God, I have peace, and I’m also really excited. I’m still in debt, I don’t know how it’s going to get paid, but the difference is, I’m not paying it. Now I’m not just going to stop paying period, but instead I’m letting God take care of it. He has a plan for me and Hilary, I know it, and it’s a good plan (Jer. 29:11). I also know that as long as I let him into every room of my heart, He will provide. His plan may not be the plan I want, but it’s the best plan for me.
So in conclusion (you guys from walk 120 should get that) from Emmaus I saw first had how much God really loves me, I learned that God has a good plan for my life, I just need to let him run it, and I learned that when I give myself to God, and let him work his plan, none of my expectations matter. God is good ALL THE TIME!
oh, I also learned that crying and hugging men is not always a bad thing……