Maybe it’s because there are so many things I enjoy doing, or maybe it’s because I can’t find one thing that I want to really focus on, but I constantly feel that I am the guy they were talking about when they made the phrase “Jack of all trades, Master of none.” I mean there are some things I’m better at than others, but I don’t feel like there’s that one thing that I’m really superb at, and I want that. I want to be an expert at something, and I just haven’t seen it happening.
I suppose it’s got a lot to do with the fact that I split my time up between so many different things. If I am going to be an expert at one thing, I guess I’ll have to give up some other things in order to do it. The hard part for me, though, is trying to figure out what the one thing is that I really want to be considered an expert in. At one time I would have said it was video, and while I still like video, I’m not so sure anymore. I mean, maybe it’s writing, audio recording, or one of the plethora of hobbies I have. There are so many things I enjoy it’s really hard to choose just one.
So, I have to make myself choose. The majority of the things I enjoy I’m not sure I could legitimately call a career (which is what I am ultimately looking for), so that makes it somewhat easy to narrow it down. It could still be video, audio, writing, or possibly something else, but like I said I have to make myself choose just one and spend the majority of my free time focusing on it. So which one should it be? I consider what I am most prepared to excel in, and the one of the bunch that seems to be the best is writing.
I have never considered my writing to be any more than gibberish, and I’m sure other people who call themselves authors may feel the same way. I still feel like this may be the path for me. I’ve been learning a lot this month while participating in NaNoWriMo, and it has been encouraging me not just to learn more about writing, but to simply write more. I’ve found one of the best ways to learn something is to do it. I saw a sign this morning that said “Learn German in Austria” and I thought that the best way to learn a new language is to put yourself in a place where you are immersed in it and are almost forced to learn it. I think it works the same way with just about everything else too, including writing. That’s what NaNoWriMo has done for me. It has forced me to write, and my writing has improved because of it (at least I like to think it has).
I have no doubt that I will reach 50,000 words before the end of the month, and that encourages me. Even though the novel I’m writing may be full of gibberish, and tons of useless words, the point is there just happens to be a story among those words. I have learned that getting the story out is just the first step, so NaNoWriMo is really about taking that first step. It’s just like walking or running, once you take that first step, the others come along right behind it. Some of them are hard, and others are easy, but once you reach the end, you know you’ve done something special. I’ve taken the first step, but I have not made it around the track yet, and when I do, I’ll have to remember there are more laps right behind this one.