So it appears that I have had what can be considered a not so nice April Fools joke played on me, and the only person who could have orchestrated this is God himself. The timing was perfect, and while it does leave me quite a bit dissapointed, it also leaves me with hope because not only does he seem to have quite a sense of humor, but he is also paying attention.
Just over the past week, me and Hilary have fully committed to do our finances the right way. Instead of figuring out WE would spend OUR money, we decided to become good stewards of the money GOD let’s us manage. So we prepared our budget with that in mind, and even though some things would not be paid in full (and some not paid at all), we fully trusted God to take care of those. We are his children and we fully believe he would not leave us hanging.
So yesterday I got my check from COSAM, and I started balancing the checkbook as the bills were paid. Then I went to check and make sure the check I get from the Band (my second “side” job) was going to be what I had planned on. Imagine my surprise when I looked and it said I would be getting not what I had planned on, but way way more than that. I’m not going to say just how much, but I will say it would take care of the things we have been worrying over for months now. In effect, it would be an answer to our prayers.
However, knowing that I was not supposed to get this extra money, I reported the mistake. We both hoped and prayed that maybe God was still answering our prayer, and not just teasing us. Maybe, just maybe, he was giving us a way out. This morning however, I got an email saying that I had indeed been overpaid, and will have to write a check to the University for the amount of the overpayment (because as of right now, all that money is actually sitting in our bank account!). So as I originally thought, this indeed was simply an April Fools joke. We were literally given an answer to our prayers, in a way that was bigger than we could imagine, only to hear, “oops, nevermind!”
Now I’m not mad, I am disappointed, but I’m not mad. I’m not upset at God because I know he knows where we are, and what we need. Even though I feel like we just had a prayer denied, I know that’s not the case. I know God will still provide for us, I know he will take care of us, and even though we may still struggle for many more months, I will still trust him.